Yeap, I broke the truce I made with myself and my bloggee that I’d write everyday, I did not, I’ve stopped writing everyday like how I used to and how I promised to do it.
There are a couple of things in my mind which I’d like to share. First of, of course, was the above.
I’ve been having trouble falling asleep these days, again. I don’t know why, I wonder why though. It’s not that I have lots to do, could it be that I always use the computer before sleeping and the light of my monitor has over glared into my consciousness? I don’t know.
It’s been 2 months now since I got back from Australia. Every now and then I’d like of the place, recalling the places I’ve been when I was there, what have I done, what did I planned and how did I feel while having those plans back then. Once I even dreamt I was taking a tram to Melbourne City on my own and I was surprisingly, wearing a pair of nice boots. Hmm…not that’s pretty suspicious, I never thought I, with stubby legs would look nice in boots but surprisingly, I did look pretty sexy in my dream! Haha. Why of course, it’s a dream after all, ain’t it? But it wasn’t exactly the boots which made me feel sexy in the dream, it was a different kind of aura….not of pure materialism.
There are words in my mind, spinning around like as though they’re trying to form rows of lyrics…which I think is what people call ‘inspiration’. I have some actually. Recently. But I have yet to pen anything down. But the last I recall, it’s something that goes like….
What should I do when I feel this way,
So often when I do,
I try to turn away from it,
Only to see it facing me however,
However I try to lose it,
Whatever I do, it can’t be lost,
It can’t be forgotten,
The way things were,
The way you wanted them me to be,
The way I wanted you them to be,
What should I do when I feel this way,
If you do not want me to,
Honestly, I don’t want too,
To feel this way,
But what can I do,
When I feel this way and right now,
I’m feeling it,
That you won’t want me too,
But I do,
I do miss you.
